What can I say, almost 4 months since that dark dark day. Mum, you are still with us, within us, a part of us, as I was a part of you. Yet there are so many things I want to say, so many conversations I want to have with you. As the perfect Nana you would be so excited to see little Leo walking now, babbling away and tormenting his older brother. How you would have embraced him and taught him the true meanings of this world. During my birthday, I selfishly missed the 'random present', the carefully thought, but totally inexplicable item you always seemed to find in those little shops that only you seemed to know about. Steve did try hard - you taught him well!! It is hard to avoid the sad days, but I think of the radiance, the warmth and the love you built this family on. I look around me, I look within me, and I look at my own young family, and I see that you are there. With all my love.